So it's now March and I'm questioning what it is I'm going to achieve this year. First academic year of my life where I'm not undergoing any academics. Crazy feeling. So now the need to actually achieve something has set in and the only thing to achieve now is getting to grips with the miserable trade of money.

So far I've learnt that it's not straight forward. But I'm reasonably happy for now. Despite half of my monthly salary having to pay for me to actually travel to work- moving out's not going to happen any time soon I reckon. This having been accepted makes me wonder if I should place my focus elsewhere and do a bit of traveling in any spare time I have. When I say traveling I don't just mean going to see the world, I mean even traveling to see the rest of a country I've grown up in and yet never seen myself.

I'm starting to get my head on a bit now that I'm a bit older. By which I obviously mean the grand old ripe age of 19 and a half. Turning 18 hit some horrible home truths for me, as did turning 19. Things such as within a few years I'll be expected to be able to stand on my own two feet entirely and no work is not an option.

Don't get me wrong- I'm by no means lazy. Nor have I not had some sort of a part time job and/or a full time occupation since I hit 16. At times I've been working 7 days a week, but that was practise at being an adult. Guess it's time the practising came to an end!

I really love my job right now. Working in a huge agency building and in central London means I meet some great people and see some amazing things happening. But I feel that as I'm still thinking as a child I'm not using my position to it's full potential.

One day I'll have a break through and all will become clear and it will make me very successful, but until then. Ga goo ga ga or something.